Thats it..... no more kids at home!! My youngest started school fulltime yesterday.
After 9 years of not working, i have taken the
last year or so to figure out what i want to do now.
I know i still want to be there to take my kids to school and pick them up. I know i don't want to go back to my previous job, working with children.
Over the last few years i have thought about becoming a Nutritionist (too much work - i'd have to do it full time), a photographer (I may still do this, but i don't want to do it full time yet), working in a pre-school (nope, i'm done with working with kids).........................
5 years ago i found out i had a heart condition, i was told i needed a pacemaker. I had it and i coped. We really wanted another baby, and i was told i could. After having my youngest (now 4), i started to feel very ill. After a long time and a lot of worry, the doctors realized that my pacemaker had been set wrong, and had gone out of sync from having my little one plus there was damage to my heart muscle. Luckily all has healed now. But i was told it wouldn't be advisable to have anymore children. That was fine, we only wanted 2 children anyway, although when you're told you can't have anymore children it does make you want more!! I even thought long and hard about adoption, but now i am happy with my 2 boys and i'm done on the child front.
My problems didn't stop with my heart. I ended up having a year of CBT treatment for OCD and anxiety. Basically the problems from my heart and pregnancy left me unable to cope with my daily life, it also brought up other worries/events from my past. I can honestly say it was the worst year of my life and although some family members and friends knew i was suffering i only think me and my husband really knew how bad it got. I am still on medication and i still keep up my CBT at home.
I do believe every thing happens for a reason - now i am happier than i have ever been and i can cope with the things that life throws at me much better.
That time lead me to this blog - as i was starting to get better, i focused on the good in everything.
Here in blog land i found wonderful inspiration (yes from ladies like you, you who are reading this right now). I have always been creative but had never thought about making and selling things i have made. I have always been interested in vintage - but again had never thought of selling vintage pieces to others. And so Poppy and Daisy started. With 2 children at home the last year or so has been a 'practice run'. I have sold things online and at a couple of fairs. It was a chance to see if this was really something i would like to do with my life. And it is!!!
I love it. I know it doesn't make alot of money, but thankfully, because my hubbie has a good job, i don't need to make alot, just enough to 'help out' and most importantly to keep me busy. (There is no way i could just stay at home, i'd get way too bored - there is only so much cleaning etc you can do).
So here it is, my plan:
Since i moved into my new house in June not much has been done, I broke my foot a week after moving in, and have only really just started to get around properly (and its still sore even now). So for the next few weeks i have a lot of boxes to unpack:
I want to make our house a home - i have shelves and pictures to put up, walls and furniture to be painted etc:
Next year i want to take a photography course - i may sell my photos along side Poppy and Daisy.
I want to learn to knit and crochet:
I want to start exercising. I used to do yoga - i found it so relaxing, and it was the slimmest i'd ever been.
I want to set up a proper website for Poppy and Daisy. I need to make things and organise my self and book up fairs to sell at:
And i want to take some time for me, to see friends, to go for walks, browse the charity/vintage shops and bake cakes:
So, as soon as i have published this post, i am off upstairs to tackle some boxes - wish me luck and thank you so much to the lovely ladies out there that have inspired me and helped me to know what i want to do in this next chapter of my life.
Please also visit me at a year of 30 to find out what i have been up to.