The last few days have really tested out my anxiety problems!
My sons school has (from when i last heard) 6 cases of swine flu. I was livid that the school had decided to let the infants (including my son) go into junior classes to see where they will be next year, when there were 2 children in there who were sent home the same day with suspected, and later confirmed swine flu!!
I decided on Tuesday to take my son out of school for the rest of the last week of term. I was worried about him, but also my youngest being under 2 and myself, having a heart condition.
Then on wednesday, he woke up not being able to move, a sore throat a temperature and headache!! I felt sick!! A doctor over the phone told me to treat him as, yes, as if he has got swine flu and to keep myself and the littlest away from him. How can a parent do that?? i just wanted to cuddle and kiss him better. Later that night his breathing became faster and he complained of a 'hot feeling' in his chest. I rang up again and was told a doctor would be round. A very kind doctor turned up wearing an apron, gloves and mask and thank god, confirmed that my boy has a bad case of tonsilitus and needs antibiotics straight away. I have never been so relieved!! (I never thought i would be saying that i'm relieved my son has tonsilitus!!!!)
I kissed and cuddled him so much.
Today, he is alot better even though still poorly, but my anxiety levels were really tested - the thoughts that were running through my mind were awful, and i was feeling hot and shaky. Luckily i know its just anxiety now, where as last year i thought i was dying!!
I'm still really worried about the swine flu - i've heard that symptoms don't come out until 4-7 days after being in contact with an infected person. I suffer with OCD although it has been under control until now - but while this flu's about, i'm not taking an risks. I am washing our hands constantly!!
Right, enough rambling. Last weekend we went to a Ferrari day, the money goes to support Little Havens hospices. It was great - we paid for my hubby and my eldest to have a ride.