I was going to write a different blog tonight, but something has stopped me.
I feel........strange........Do you know what i mean by that?? Theres just something not quite right. I don't feel sad, but i don't feel happy....i guess i just feel like i want to be quiet?
Last week i had some good news....Some of you will know (from previous posts) that i have a pacemaker for a congenital heart condition. After my youngest was born i suffered more damage to my heart.....infact the whole of last year was awful for me. But i recieved a letter from my cardiologist last week saying that the damage that had been caused is now all fine as the pacemaker and time has made it heal. I wish i had found this out earlier (i was ment to ring up a week after my last ehocardigram to find out the results, but i was so scared it was going to be bad news that i didn't)It took me 6 weeks of worry before i found out. The problem is, that i don't have much faith in doctors - they have got so many things wrong in the past - that i can't help but think, have they got this wrong. I still feel like i'm coming to terms with having a pacemaker for the rest of my life and I am trying desperately to believe them, that this is now ok.
Then last night i came home to find my car had been keyed the whole length!! Why are people so cruel?? It's going to cost us a fortune to fix.
I wish i could share some more things with you on here, but it's abit to 'public' for my liking.
I'll do a happy post tommorrow - after all, that is why i set up my blog in the first place
Hugs to you all xx LissyLou xx